I long for thee
I long for the strength to go against the resistance building within me.
The conflict between listening to my mind or listening to my heart is on going.
In my society, it is prized to have pride in egoistic achievement.
In my heart, it is prized to have pride in limitless compassion.
As I sit in solitude, butt to the ground and my legs crossed,
spine upright and taut from years of commitment
I can’t help, but allow, the faces of my past and present to visit
like friendly ghost, they come and go
I long for the courage to overcome the coward within me.
The conflict between making excuses or doing is daily.
In my mind, the voices of my community, saying what I can and cannot do.
In my intuition, the voices within me are singing harmonies that counter balance negativity.
As I walk in solitude, connecting with my breath
head raised and smiling in gratitude from years of discipline
I can’t help, but allow, the projections of my past and present anxieties to visit me
like scared ghost, they remain in the dark shadows and do not scare me
I no longer long for the power to transmute the insecurities within me.
The conflict between standing in my Truth or denying has come to an end.
The lion roared and dissolved such misunderstandings.
Now, I long to spread bliss with the light of knowing dharma's existence .
Recommended read: The Lion’s Roar by Chogyam Trungpa